MY STORY:

I've had many experiences in meditation, that have given me a lot of mind intertaintment.
Many bodily experiences of energy to.

In 2000 Shoonyo Maharaj
an advanced indian yogi and energy master,
during a meditation camp in the Himalayas,
touched my head when I was in deep meditation,
and it started a flow of energy inside my body,
it opened my nervous system to the flow of life energy.
Some call it a shakti path, which means that the energy flows from the master to disciple.

I don't know if this was shoonyo's intention?
But anyway a wild journey began in the name of: "kundalini".

It felt as if the new powerful life energy in my nervous system, almost burned away my brain and body in the first days. Many times I was afraid that I chould die.
I was only saved by a friend, who was there for me,
all the time in the first days.
Thank you Gunnar Ji.

It happened for me in the summer of 2000.
I went for my first trip to India.
It was like coming home to my forgotten self, to my long forgotten home and mother land,
after so much time away.
Maybe many lifes times away.
Just fantastic.

I went with 3 friends from Denmark
and one friend from Florida.
I felt very lucky to be close to this real guru:
Shoonyo Maharaj,
who is an energy and meditation yogi master
of the top class.
I was so open and on the right place at the right time.

Well it was not just fun and joy in that meditation camp in the himalayas, it was also hard and tuff for the little danish boy with a stubborn mind and body.

But it was as it was.

One day I told Shoonyo:
"I feel, that if you touch me, I will get enlightened".
I was very eager and very naive, and very open.
One night we had a collective meditation.
We sat in a way, so all our bodies made a mandala,
and the guru stood in the middle and made some energy work.
I was sitting in the middle circle.
Then at some time he touched my forehead.
A tremble began gently to go through my body,
and at the same time my mind experienced a chock of excitement.

Suddenly my body fell forward, and landed on the ground. It was almost paralyzed, I could just slowly move my very heavy and numb body in a more comfortable position. I laid for some hours there.
The other people came out of the meditation, and were talking with the guru, who sat on a little alter at the end of the room. They just ignored me, made no drama out of it.
When the sitting was over, all people left, and I laid there alone cought in my body, but total aware.
My friend came back after some time, and asked me if
I was allright. I said: "yes, but also that I was afraid, and didn't know what was happening".
He said: "don't worry, it's just your own self that is waking up"...

After a while my left lower arm began to shake, and it just went on for some hours, and then the whole left arm was shaking.

Then I was forced by the indians there,
to come out and eat late night dinner.
With much difficulties, burning sensations in the upper body, and almost in a trance, I managed to eat with my right hand.
Then I stumbled my way to our guesthouse.
A long walk about 1km. But in that condition, all alone in the very dark himalaya's it felt very long and frightening, but at the same time also divine.

I changed from joy to fear all the time.

When I came to my 3 friends in our guestroom,
I just fell on my madras on the floor, and then the body began to shake like crazy. Hahaha.. My God..
And it just continued for many hours during the night.
In the beginning it was just shaking, but after some time it was exploding. Lying on the back, my arms and legs raised up 90 degrees, and banged with full force down into the ground.
I was totally wet of sweat, and my body was totally burning. And I was terryfied. My friends did what they could to help me relax and enjoy the shaking. Haha..

One friend had to go away.
It was to much for him, he just wanted to sleep,
I can understand that now!

It was like running 2-3 marathons in a row, fortunately
I was in a very good condition after training karate for 9 month.
But what my body was doing there, was much more than I can do by myself. It was the pure life force, (kundalini energy) that was doing the job. I guess all the supressed life force and feelings, were coming out, after a whole life of supression.

Some years later I tried to do the same thing with my body, as an exercise, but after just a few minutes I was totally exhausted.
But this night it just continued for many hours.

No wonder my little mind collapsed.
I guess sometimes I was crying of fear.

At one time I stood up, and the body began to jump.
It jumped higher than I ever experienced before
or after.
At that moment I felt untouchable, it was cool, and I laughed out loud. But then it just continued, and the joy changed to deep fear again, because of this wild uncontrolled jumping.
The fire began to burn in my calves, and fear turned into more fear. So my friend took me into the shower, and showered me with cold water for a while. It calmed the body a little down, and I went back to lie on my madras.
My friend, held me, hold my body, nursed me, and talked to me about, what was happening. He had experienced other wild things with energy earlier in his life, so he had personal experiences to talk from, it calmed me, and helped med a lot.
Thank you so much again Gunnar Ji.

After a while I fell in a deep sleep for a few hours, wich in it self was a great miracle that night.


That energy helps to free the person.

I belive it's very important to be with a person who has a personal experience and a personal knowledge about kundaini, one who can gude you.
Not just some intellectual guide.

You have to feel your inner body, feel your nerves, feel your guts and all is being burned by this strong energy.
The kundalini energy is not dangerous in itself,
it is actually very subtle and fine.
If you relax 100% you can feel it.
What can create danger when the kundalini awakens,
is our own fear. If we have no fear, and just relax totally in to the energy, it will not harm us.

But even one tiny resistance from our mind or body,
can create a living hell. I know.
Don't play with it, but don't fear it either.


To be continued....









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